Hi strangers! A few of you have asked for another blog update- I have good news& bad news. Which would you like 1st? Bad news? Ok.
CHAPTER 1: Don't TALK about it. BE ABOUT IT. I'm not going to be blogging as much as I did for the Oxygen shoot. No posting weekly progress pics. No psychological self-evaluations.
Over the last year, I put alot of pressure on myself to meet others expectations and it took a LONG time to get my thinking straight. I felt pressed to constantly inspire people and it became unhealthy. I have been blessed with a strong support system of family & friends- specifically the women who compete in my Bible study. They have been so encouraging as I sort through all the crap I've been telling myself. I now do this for 2 reasons alone:
I do this to glorify God. (SCREEEEECH) [insert ghetto exclamation]- "Wait, hohhwd up." Bikini Competition? God? (One of these things is not like the other) Everything I've been through in life brought me exactly where He wants me. My life verse is Jer 29:11- "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you & not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope & a future." Any issues I've created along the way spring solely from not putting my trust COMPLETELY in Him- placing it in others or myself. This is still a constant battle for me- I want to be strong & do things alone. The irony is that only when I am weak, can He be my strength.
I do this for fun. For myself alone. I love a challenge. Sick? Yes, but even when I hate it- I love it. Makes no sense to me either, it's ok :o)
Now The good news! I still want to help people so if you have any questions about diet or exercise, please ask! I can definitely show you where to find great info (Dear Pinterest, will you marry me?)- It's all about discovering what works for you. Please share too- if you find something that inspires you, send it to me! I'd love to pass it on. Keep the positivity flowing! Happy training! KB <3
